Hi Guys!
So I definitely woke up encouraged this morning, even though it was 20 degrees and raining. It was basically snowing! But, bible study really helped uplift my spirits. I led bible study today with my teammate B-Dawg (aka Bethany). We talked about having solitude in Christ and about how important it is to allow the Holy Spirit to work through you.
I piloted the Holy Spirit portion because I really let myself get into a bad place this weekend. I totally ignored the Holy Spirit and tried to deal with my struggle on my own which only led to Melanie Fiona being on repeat. Totally out of character for me. I hope that as I learn from this struggle I can properly handle the next one with better care.
I was a little apprenhensive about practice today because of how this past weekend went but it ended up going really well. (I didn’t see Yonas though :(…hopefully Wednesday. But, even though it was probably 10 degrees and raining, B-Dawg and I ran 200, 150, 150 and 100. Well, I ran as a sprinter would and B-Dawg ran as a steeplchaser would. (She is a steeplechaser) 😉
The trip has been shifted into another gear because we are now two weeks in. My coaches are challeneging me to push myself out of my comfort zone and to fully allow God to do a MIGHTY work in my life. Jodi (trip supervisor/coach/alarm clock/big sister/accountability partner) said something to me today that has stuck.
She said, “You need to give yourself some Grace.”
She feels that I am too hard on myself when I should rest in God alone. Knowing that He will always have my back and He will never forsake me. He has given me the ultimate “Get out of Hell free” card, so I need to stop sending myself there. Punishing myself in the most bizarre and over-the-top ways is only going to cause more harm then help. God just wants me to rest in Him! Matthew 11:28-30 ! He loves me! O, how He loves me!
He wants me to enjoy Belgium Waffles with Ice Cream too!
Until then Stay Crazyy Blessed!